So why did I need therapy?
Well thankfully it was part of my degree course in psychology. For the last 30 years I’ve kept myself busy. When I say busy, I mean I did not stop working, studying, sports and having fun until my body forced me to STOP.
Physical injury was a frequent occurrence. I would be carrying shopping up the stairs and collapse due to a hernia or I would tear my calf muscle during a game of squash. Both the above have happened countless times. Having ignored all other signals my body sent me such as headaches, stiff muscles and the most significant in hindsight of course the restlessness.
If I’d ever looked up the signs of PTSD I may have realised that I had many of the classic symptoms;
– Problems sleeping
– Hyper state of alertness
– Unable to ‘feel’ emotions
Herein lies an enormous challenge; most people do not realise they have PTSD unless they are specifically aware of their own behaviour and the traumatic situation they have experienced is recognised. By recognised I mean a visible trauma: car crash, someone dying suddenly, a natural disaster, an accident, a medical misser…..
So many people suffer at the hands of others and it’s never seen and certainly not recognised.